I dunno what to say ~

So dear human beings as you know that I am single for about 5 months now ~

I'm doing pretty good ~ well I believe this post is part of the let out

and how I sorta dealt with my broken heart

So basically I think the first remedy is to cry 

just cry as hard you can, crying actually help to ease off the pain and the weight your holding in

your having a broken heart, you have the right and all the documents of prove that you have the right to let it out and cry ~ 

second of all. YOU NEED YOUR FAMILY AND BEST BUD'S SUPPORT

seek the company from your frenz, talk to them, cry in front of them 

they can give you the best comfort, understanding and advice

Jeez Louise, I have boogers and slime pouring down from my nose, when I cry in front of my bestie 

make sure there's a tissue box right beside you

I understand the besties wont care that you will cry in glam but come on. I'm very sure they don't wanna see all those gooey fluids dangling  

third, is to do the things that you've never done before and to meet new people

I went to the club twice with my babes, but I just manage to stay in the club for just 1-2 hours, I'm outta here!

coz I have tinnitus, I have a really bad ear when I approach to loud noises. my right ear will be so darn painful and I will have great headaches 

and the club is really not my thing, I don't like clubbing

no offence to you party people and clubbers

I think the club is an ugly place

basically what happened was, I go out and spend, I spend on yummy great food, shopping ....

and yet I still feel very upset

then I remember what my mum told me, if I'm feeling unhappy chant or please do look at your tattoo to remind yourself

"Happiness is not something ready made, it comes from your own actions"-Dalai Lama

and it's true

I'm a Buddhist and I do follow my mother's root 

so what I did, I browse online to look for Buddhist Society in Cambridge

and I found one and the society is under the University of Cambridge

and plus the it was the next day they have the "meet and greet" 

perfect timing*

so what I did was to fb message them by asking whether I can join in although I'm not a student from Cambridge.U, but yea they replied and say yes I can just come over

I need some really positive people around me, plus Cambridge university students in the Buddhist society ~ must be very good 

it is good to blend with people who has class and knowledge

as for my uni 

*roll eyes*

well basically, even for us art people, we wont mention the actual name of our university you see, if we want to say it, we say we are from Cambridge School of Art

which is true, well basically we have this big building with different departments

the big building (doaflkajnfhdfs University)

the building contains people who study science, psychology, business and yada yada yada

so for fashion (me), animation, graphic, photography, interior (we are the cambridge school of art)

I really don't mean to be rude, but for those other departments are usually (*cough* chavs, hood chicks/dudes)

so I went to the Buddhist Society which is located in the chapel, I love to go into their university ouuu is sooooo pretty !!!!

I have to walk over the Mathematical bridge to go to the chapel ~ 

trust even the security guards in their uni are way more polite and the way they speak is very adequate compare to my uni *pfft* 

before I join the society, I always call the people who study in Cambridge U aliens 

and trust THEY ARE ALIENS !! I experienced it and I have have the definite points to name them that ~ well to be frank, I do feel like shit when I'm with them, bcoz they are so smart, the way they speak, oofff, very educated very knowledgeable, have that taste of class

but they did mentioned that I'm doing something that I'm passionate about and everyone is different and it will create that certain drive to achieve my career that I will be very happy about

*which is true* but trust

if I have my dad's brain I want to be a vet ~  

my bestie Tory, speaks good english, both her parents are doctors and her mum speaks posh english, I thought it was good, but the alien world is a whole new different level

I'm not bashing the ppl from my uni, but .... it's true ! let me tell you what happen .... basically now the fashion departments have 4 studios now, and the actual studio that I was working in is at the ground floor, I need to release my bowels, so I have to go to the one which is nearest to my studio.

the toilet is a unisex toilet, so means male and female can use it

so when I'm done I opened the door, there's this black dude wants to use my cubicle and it was the only one available and then ....

"hey yo, there's a pubic hair on the toilet bowl."

I turn and said "well that can't be mine because I dont have any."

*walk off*

when I reach the studio I was :

 "WHAT DID I JUST SAID ??!!"

I use my hair to cover my face and I was red ~ RED

I told my bestie what happened and she burst out laughing *hard*

she said this is the best joke of the year 

and she said "even though that was funny, but who the hell will mention the pubic hair anyway!"

omg .....

ok come back come back*

I joined the society and I went to join the meditation activity and boy oh boy I love it !!

I fell asleep at first lol, but it was good !

I strongly prefer the walking meditation, even the Buddha strongly recommend it 

I feel all the pain just went down to my feet, ease off the burden in my heart, realized so much when my brain is relaxed and blank

and I really need this, I need this society

all the comments that he mentioned "You are this sad depressed little girl when I first met you."

"It's been 3 months." 

"The past is the past you have to let go,"

"you have to move on."

Fine fair enough, I was depressed due to stress (imagine this, I go to college every single day, score distinctions and merits, tutors and classmates knows I'm a hardworking and good student, applied for uni while none of the uni accept me or invite me for an interview while the people who are a no show and only got passes got accepted by universities, so I took a gap year bcoz I need to be in the country for 3 years to be considered as home student, during that period I threw all my stuff away and build a new portfolio, and the portfolio I looked into were masters level while I was just a college student) ofcoz that will be stressful and during that time guys just used my kindness and sincerity coz I trust and believe them ofcoz I will be depressed ! I can't believe he will name me that ... I was open to my problems bcoz I was comfortable when I was with him and when we were couple, I hope he will understand me and support me to make me this better person, but no instead he can call me that.

I realized I am not this "sad depressed little girl" is just I am in the wrong hands. 

"It's been 3 months" - wow .... so throughout all those 2 years of relationship and he so called love me very much can just wipe off like that ... and yet I'm his so called first love ... although we are not couple anymore but how come there's not an inch of love in his heart ...  I know I did treat him well and pampered him well and I do love him ... 

and lastly he has NO RIGHT to ask me to let go and to move on, everyone else can say so but HE HAS NO RIGHT TO ASK ME TO MOVE ON ... although I'm the one who chose to break up... but I REALLY HAVE NO CHOICE I HAVE TO DO SO 

long story short 

*he accused me of hacking his facebook account, he called the police for an investigation and he said the police said there's proof that I did it*

I did burst out crying while the nun asked me why I came for meditation, I cried because I realized so much, I cried because I feel how come people can be so cruel and how can he do that while I truly love him so much. Is just the trigger of realization comes to my senses .... 

then after that my next activity was to go to the Ajahn Brahm talk 

it was the best Buddhism talk ever

he was a physicist from Cambridge University, then he went to Thailand to be trained as a monk

he uses his experienced and humor to teach and talk about Buddhism

he is so funny, when I do my sewing or homework, I just go on to youtube to listen to his talks 

and I even bought his book 

there's one story that he said that made me be able to move on better and healthier

There's a monster wanted to go into the palace, the guards of the palace pull out their weapons and try to shoo the monster away, they shouted at the monster with rage and anger, each time they try to attack the monster, the monster grew bigger and bigger each day, so the king left the palace to ask for the Buddha's help, the Buddha said to the king "let the monster in, show it with kindness." so the king went back to the palace and followed the Buddha's instructions. Each day of kindness the monster became smaller and smaller until it disappeared.

This story means, the more we push the pain away, the pain will grow stronger and stronger, if we open our heart and embrace the pain, become a better person and let go, the pain will eventually go away without noticing it and whatever we've faced, bad relationships, got raped or whatsoever, it is not our fault. 

there's one time, someone ask for his help to council a woman, and he was the only dice to help her. She went through a lot of doctors, support groups, psychiatrist still no improvement ...  

so he went to help her without knowing what had happened to her, without any preparation, he said the knowledge will blind the truth, so basically the lady was brutally raped, he said to her "you are very lucky that you got raped." 

*surprise surprise, he was shock himself when he said that but after a while he understands why those words came out from his mouth,*

"you have the great strength in your eyes that other people don't have, and you can tell that unfortunate person "I understand how you feel, don't worry you are not alone", I am a monk but I can't say those words and I can't help because I've never been through that incident before, but you can."

with that story, I understand that senses now, people say think positive, time will heal lalalalalala, yea I understand all that, but how, it's not easy .... I realize I've been pushing the pain away, keeping myself busy is a way to push the pain away, that's why I move on with pain, but that story made me realize so much and yet it is not my fault, I'm not wrong this time ... yes I lied to him before but I lie to protect myself, protect him because I don't want to argue, I don't want to cause any arguments while is such a small matter, I want to be happy to be with him, and seeing him saying those hurtful words that can seriously bash me down, it is not me being extremely sensitive, it is just his use of words are very cruel until it seems like your not worth a damn thing, when I say what he says are hurtful he will be like "ou, I'm just saying it out of anger" well yes I know that when we're angry we say a lot of mean things, but there's this certain line we just don't cross. I did slapped him before, I feel sorry I did that, I shouldn't but ouch his words stings to the core ... people lie because they are afraid, yes I was, I was afraid of him, afraid of his harmful words, he will hug me to make me feel better again, but the next day, it will happen again, I can't having the warm love then seeing him crushed it, again and again ... I was scared of him ....

When I cry so hard because I was in great pain, he will film me crying to let me see it so I can reflect myself and also mentioned I might need a psychiatrist.... doing this is to help me ... being with him was like walking on strings, a little bit of fault will go tumbling down ...

it is no exaggeration, words do hurt 

during the Ajahn Brahm talk, I realize a whole new level, I cry again lol !! omg ...my friend who sat beside me was shock, lol omg awkward* will say sorry to her next time when I see her ^^

but it really made me so much better, so I embraced my pain, I became a better person, I am confident, I am not this bad person he mentioned, I am doing well in uni, I am talented, I have a great wonderful family who truly loves me, great frenz, I feel beautiful to maintain the compassion at heart. I am very in place, mummy said baba is going to buy a house in chesthunt next year when I move back to London ^^  

so one day me and chloe went into Giulio's and they put out a sign that they are hiring, so I think is a good chance to improve myself to get some experience, so I asked them whether they want someone who can do part-time or full time, but they want someone who can do full time, well I cant bcoz I'm a third year now, need to dedicate my time to my work, but they asked me what days I can do, so I told them I can only do during the weekends or stretch it until Monday but they still ask me to hand them my CV and they will put me in their record =) after 10 minutes I left the shop, they called me in for an interview

Giulio is a boutique that sales contemporary top brands like dolce and gabanna, michael kors, helmut lang, paul smith and all that ~

Chloe said that boutique don't simply hire people and they are very hard to get in if they invite me for an interview, it is a good sign ~

my outfit for the interview ^^

I was very sleepy because I was working on my dissertation and I was nervous ~ so the interview was very smooth sailing and after 2 hours they asked me in for a trial 

I went for the trial and the stock room is a whole bundle of confusion ~ then my feedback was "we don't want to lead you on but we really want someone who can do full time and jsdnakdsjd with the rota *I forgot*, but we were very impressed with your CV, and you are very confident on your trial you actually approached the customers and involved in the shop which is good and obviously you know fashion and you have a very unique style." 

and then I said "it's okay, if you guys didn't take me in I won't blame you at all, I understand."

"No ofcoz not that, if we are not impressed we will be like thanks but no thanks, but yea ofcoz we don't want to lose someone who has potential."

ou well, I can't do full time, but one short trial and feedback makes me happy and I feel great and knowing I'm good at fashion and I know fashion, it's amazeballs 

so yes do something, that was unexpected and leap out of the comfort zone ~ is part of embracing and healing ~

so almost every week I go and play snooker ~ yes I play snooker now, I know right, I'm so hot LOL!!!! joking joking * 

I'm not used to it at first, not really great at it, but I'm improving ~ with chloe's guidance I'm doing quite okay ~

so besides improving emotionally, improving physically is totally needed as well ~ 

Before, I just had the blonde ombre hair ~

I wanted to make it more obvious, I don't want to have the whole head blonde bcoz having black roots is really ugly, so what I did was bleached parts of it ~

changing hair colour can enhance daily outfits and style, 

I really like it and my fren in class said that it makes my face smaller and it seems I lost weight ~

 well to lose weight in a fun way, is .... 

no not sex, I know sex can help to lose a lot of calories and makes the skin glow

but if your single I don't recommend one night stands, nope

I signed up for the gym near my uni and as for workout, I go spinning 

is a very effective and fun way to lose weight, tone the legs and bum area and it also helps to burn fat at the tummy area ~

and I went to get myself a new tattoo ~ 

I always wanted a unicorn for a period of time ~

so I went to tattoo crazy to do it ~

unicorn origami <3 p="">

so yes, embrace the pain, let the pain in, not pushing it away, change and become a better person, let it go ~

yesterday my phone memory is getting low, so I have to clear some certain stuff or transfer the photos to my laptop, then I found the "sent" folder via whatsapp, apparently is the screenshots conversation that I sent to my sister ~ and I read through them I found out that I am really improving and I'm getting better day by day ~

well this is going to be interesting ~

If you receive this from the person that you really love the most, how will that make you feel 

I have no place to speak, when I speak, he will imitate my voice and my movement or he will cut me in, but see ....

this is the part I really don't appreciate, he can say me this but when I say things about him his sarcasm will come out

 If this is the before me who read this conversation I will be pouring and crying hard real hard

but now I actually feel :

yea this is how I feel 

After all that, I asked him again a month ago perhaps that did he really call the police, he said no, he was just using the police to test whether I was lying 

my jaw really dropped down to my toes, I said that was a bad move of him, but he said we made loads of bad moves but breaking up IS the bad move .... after all that I do love him and hope he will understand and try to explain but he said to me was

"a wise man said if he doesn't care doesn't mean that he doesn't understand"

it is very surprising he doesn't feel a single guilt, while I constantly blamed myself and was afraid that I am the bad person and scared my frenz and family just saying nice things to me coz I'm their daughter/sister/fren ....  

"you lie to protect yourself and you do love him very much, to lie to avoid arguments but he lied out of being spiteful."  

I know, I read those conversations, I love him and all but I deserve better 

ever since I go to uni concentrate in what I'm doing, go to the Buddhist society and hang out with my friends, they can tell that I'm happier coz I'm much more chatty and joke around more, and they say my face is glowing as well =))

I am going to stay single for a while, focus on finishing my degree, build a great final collection and my brand, will definitely choose my next man more wisely and take it slow, I don't like to change boyfrenz like changing clothes so I'm going to be extra careful 

sometimes I do wonder when I can find the one 

who my next man will be 

I've tried my best to be a good girlfren, I am not saying I am right and innocent all the time, I stayed for 2 years although I got hurtful things but this police thing is too much ... leaving was the hardest but the best choice I've ever done for myself.  

 when I was with my babe chloe, she said "in my life you are the kindest person I have ever met, when we were at kings cross, loads of people passed by and they don't even care or bother to help the lady but you actually did, you helped her to carry her stuff, while no one did it but you."

"there's not a single bad bone in you Li-Qi, you are the least person to be considered as a bad person." 

"you've stayed for 2 years, you had done more than enough, the police situation is really out of order and is crazy !"

Three of swords

Ramble

Is what I'm here for ? I didn't update my blog for a very long time and once is updated

I'm writing about my sadness 

I need to let it out 

I have the need to do so 

Last 2 weeks I went to Paragon Mall to play tarot cards 

I was shuffling for my present position 

"pick out nine cards" the lady said 

once she organized then flipped them 

the card three of swords is placed right in the middle

"having a heartbreak aren't you?"

I was shocked, superstitious ~ cliche ? you tell me   

Hundreds of cards and this is the card I chose without knowing and it is placed in the middle without revealing it ~ 

I told her "yes I am ..."

I look fine

I smiled

I laughed

I went shopping 

Crazy and chitty chatty with frenz

yes I did it all 

but my heart

constantly cringing

go to bed late on purpose so the next day will approach me quickly once I open my eyes

I lost my beloved

I lost the man that I constantly called him "baby, hubby ..."

called back the name that made me smile and that names will be mine forever from him

"baby, sweet pie, strawberry cheesecake, *all kinds of mixed up dessert names, Mrs Lo***...."

someone will contact me ....

best of all

cuddles 

kisses 

someone to talk to 

I no longer can appreciate his face when he laughed, his head tilted backwards a little bit, his big beautiful eyes with full lashes becomes smaller but still able to see the colour of his eyes and the exact full shape lashes  which is like that  ||||||||||||.... *beautiul I know*

end of my summer when I go back to Cambridge

all of that will go poof disappear in thin air 

I have frenz not many of them, but I do

they are amazing wonderful loving people

but they seem to have their own plans and things to do 

I have my beloved bestie Tory, but she will no longer live in Cambridge coz her stupid landlady decided not to keep the contract of the house, NOT HAPPY ! 

plus we will only have one day a week in uni during my third year, but hell tons to do ~ 

Stupid disgusting revolting fucking dumb headed me 

whatsapp him a few days ago, it took a whole loads of breathing and courage 

the serious nerve wrecking feeling I remember when I need to kill a humongous spider

" ..... I do miss you but none of that matters.... we are no longer in a relationship anymore"

I did this to myself 

yes, I grabbed a knife and stabbed myself .... I slapped myself in the face

If I didn't text him, none of that will apply on me ... 

He is being realistic I cannot complain 

naive me 

move on ..... 

It started when he received a security message from facebook

saying that someone from Malaysia is trying to hack his account

He asked me whether I did it

I said no, but tbh I didn't handle it well

I went angry and offended

I was in flamed because he used to check my phone and history in my laptop when I was having my shower or not around, I dun mind him doing it infront of me but I seriously dun appreciate when his doing that behind my back ...

so if he thinks I will do that when we are million miles away, half across the globe 

yes I got pretty offended by that because I dun do that to him, I dun check his stuff 

when I do, I did it when his around or just wanting to get his attention

so yeah I said no I didnt do it

so he called the police to detect and see who hacked it 

then after like half an hour or so 

he send a "........"

"why didnt you tell me?"

"I'm not angry that you try to log into my fb but I'm angry you lied."

"The police will contact you tomorrow, maximum friday."

I went ballistic and kept on saying I really didnt do it 

he did mentioned about the time frame, after a few mins I sent him a message that incident happened

at that time frame 

I was at the living room watching movies with my mum and sis/ shopping at the mall

coz of different time zone it was either one those reasons

but hell why should I log into his fb for !??! 

I never even thought of that !!!!

"you never admit your lies anyway ."

"there's proof this time."

I went crazy coz I hate the feeling of being accused 

I said I really didnt do it, I can hand them my laptop and I'm ready to call my family lawyer 

and then he said ok if you didn't do it I will call back the police to drop the charges 

what was all that

I mean really ?! It was so obvious right there, he doesnt trust me 

he first trust the police ? this time I'm lucky but what if I'm not next time ?

I mentioned after all that jazz I'm breaking up with him

I was torn

shocked

scared

pretty dissapointed

hurt   

and all that, he doesn't understand that this had really affect me 

his frenz thinks I'm stupid

that I kept on focusing on the blame 

I'm not going to deny, yes I lied to him in the relationship

coz to protect myself and not to argue

insecure 

but I'm sorry 

his frenz cannot judge me like that 

bcoz none of them are not in the relationship

he is a good guy as a fren but ppl are different when they are in different roles 

I dun wanna say more 

my frenz thinks that he didn't call the police

he might've want to do something to test me but he was playing with fire

I'm afraid he did 

this break up is pretty unfair .... overall unfair 

and this is such a stupid break up !!!

STUPID !!!!

calling the police .... Portugal has the worst and stupid police force ever  

it will be so much easier that there's a pill to make the love go away 

negative me

dun wanna be in love again 

and what really bad is, I can't be in love anymore ..... he was my first proper love .... 2 years is not long

but I spent a lot of days with him ..... before him I had a relationship of 2 years with someone but it was a long distance relationship and I just got to see him around 4 times in the entire relationship 

If he is having someone else, I have no right whatsoever but I will be pretty god damn pissed

I will damn him and that girl

good luck with his certain behavior that I bet that girl will leave 

*note* scorpions sting you and you will die 

I cry and wail yes it is irritating and tiring 

but his stinging tongue will seriously hurt your feelings and no, no excuse because he was being angry and he say those stuff he doesn't mean ... yea I get that ... but those words seriously hurt until my frenz says that seriously had crossed the line ...

I am not a perfect woman to deal with 

but I dun have a forked tongue that will make him so low that ho doesn't worth a damn thing or weak 

but ofcoz stupid coconut me 

will bless him and pray and wish every single best of luck that I have for him

constantly have a soft spot in loving him and missing him deeply 

will keep an eye on him to his smiling pictures and fun with his frens 

(I'm a dumbass)  

will think of him everyday before I sleep, tears will flow down my cheeks but it's ok and I will be ok

I work out a lot, been running almost every day and drank loads of water and green tea

time will be my best friend atm ~

I have a third year collection to do and I haven't started yet

thinking of dissertation on how to start 

His last words

"Stay Strong"

"Bye"

*END*

Shop until I drop in March ~ errr not actually *

Hello April ~

I'mma such a lazy bone, I didn't log into the blogger account to update my blog for bazillion years

it is either 

*no motivation

*no inspiration

I've been facing a lot lately, stress and depression ~

my body clock is really f up ~ I went to london during my easter break for a few days but although I'm having holidays I'm defo pounding hard to update my work, but unfortunately it never ends ~ NEVER*

do you know what pisses me off ? 

whatever I do, no matter how much time, effort and money I invest into

my grades doesn't count in the first year .... 

I was very devastated, I was going to say "f it .... whatever" 

but I have great passion towards my course and my future field

is a good practice and knowing the basics for preparation towards the second year

I dunno whether my blabbering makes sense bcoz is 9:10 a.m now, I haven't sleep yet .... 

well whatever I'm not sleepy anyway ~

is just everything is really crazy, I'm planning to do 100 crochet circles towards my textiles final outcome

a dress with detailed cuttings for fashion design .....

I'm going mad and excited at the same time, I want to prove to the tutors that I'm capable in the course and I'm hardworking !!!! =D

anyway in order to update my blog much more, I am inspired by one of Michelle Phan's video which is about latest purchase of the month something like that ....

I'm not showing off or whatsoever 

but I believe it will be exciting ~ bcoz I myself  love to watch that kind of videos or blog ~

so these are the items that I purchased in *March* ~

first ~

=) bag ~~~

the smile bag is part of the latest trends, I would like to buy a fuchsia smile bag but there's no celine stores in cambridge or I can't find it in London ... (cant be bothered anymore) 

I was planning to buy a black one, but my bf said it will be too ordinary and I have a lot of black bags *which is true* ou well lolx !

second ~

gold wavy chunky neck piece ~

I bought this necklace from topshop 

My choice to purchase accessories will be from topshop ~

I don't go to the ones in cambridge, when I go back to London I will always go to the one in oxford street ~  

I love accessories which are bold, huge and heavy

it makes me feel safe and the feeling of having metal accessories is much more real ~

you know that some accessories they have great metalic surface that it looks heavy but is not, yes I hate accessories like that, proper HATE it ~

third ~

studded suede ankle boots 

I've been craving for this for a very long time ~

this shoes usually cost £25 or more in high street branded stores

there's one time I saw it in Ark and they are selling for £18, I was majorly happy but unfortunately they don't have my size ~

I went up on9 and I found it on ebay for selling £13 ~ 

I was in a dilemma whether to buy it or not bcoz I have tons of shoes ~ 

well I will be clearing my shoe rack after my deadline ~

forth ~

sparkly jelly slippers 

I wear slippers at home, I always clean the flat but I still prefer to wear slippers around because I don't like to have dusty feet when I climb to bed, there's one rule that Joao has to obey is "wash your feet before getting into bed", I always shower before I sleep ~  I used to have a straw black slipper, well after a while I can see straws on the floor wherever I walk, and there's a huge hole in each slipper, so that's why I bought this gorgeous shiny slipper ~

is great love ~

fifth ~

geometric pattern collar dress

I love dresses that have crisp white collar attach to it

it makes me look smart and fashionable when I throw over a big black coat on ~ 

I love the pattern on the sleeves which is a different scale on the body ~

close up pattern ~

sixth ~

leather studded dress

I went back to London during my first day of easter holiday 

I met up with my sister on Saturday and we went shopping in Primark which is located in tortenham court road ~ 

I HEART the primark there ~ their products is different than the one in marble arch and the quality is really good ~ the environment is not stressful as the ones in marble arch and is bigger ~~

I bought this dress for only £10 after discount ofcoz ~

the bold gold collar detail is great love ~ 

seventh ~

silver metalic dress ~

As you can see that my fashion choice gives out attention

but not sexual attention ofcoz lolx, if not joao will be piiiisssssssss ~ 

sometimes he think my style is too much and he needs me to give him some space and time to adapt it

lolx ~ ou well he did said he loves me the way I am and he wants me to wear whatever I want or be whatever I want to be ~ 

surface of the dress ~

yayyyyy !!! I have a similar dress as Coco Rocha 

I love her ~ she's my favourite model, I know her from one of Michelle Phan's interview and I follow her on instagram, then I noticed she's one of the judge in The Face which is a new modeling program by Nigel Barker ~ she is really original and definitely different than any other models ~

I always look forward for Saturday bcoz I will download my 3 fav tv programs on9 and do my homework at the same time ~

*project runway

*big bang theory

*the face 

eighth ~

modern little black dress

I love dresses which are thick, bold, structured and fits the body like a glove 

and a little black dress will never ever go out of style 

 I pair it up with a golden neck piece to attract more attention to the dress and ofcoz the entire ensemble will stand out even more ~ 

a selfie shot ~ 

Alrighty that's all I got in March

anyway I had eyelash extensions last Tuesday and it was £20 ~~

I really regret that I spent £20, I dont look good with the falsies plus it falls off during the next day and when I woke up, I rubbed my eyes and some fell off .... dont spend money on eyelash extensions ... is not worth the money !!!! it was my first and it will be my LAST !!!! I SWEAR !!!!!!! 

is already 10 in the morning and I'm going to have a shower and continue doing my work ~

I'M TIRED !!!!!!!!!!!! RARRRRARRRR !!!!!

ooooo Ben and Jerry chocolate fudge*

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