my heart is as cold as the London weather

Decided to blog today because I dun wanna the "being single" blogpost to be the first

it is so sad ....

I still manage to put a smile on my face during the day but when I climb to bed after doing my prayers

I still cry myself to sleep ... can't seem to control my tears, it just keep on running down my cheeks, squeezed my pillow to control myself from crying out loud ... my chest hurts a lot ... 
on monday went back to college to work then Gloria asked whether I wanna go to the fabric store to buy some calico and cotton, I said I dont mind so I went there
the fabric store called Joel's Fabric Store, when I went in there I feel like I'm in heaven
it is such an amazing place n they supply the fabrics to the Queen ~
I've never been into such a big and whole loads of varieties fabric store, it was amazing ....
when I went to the counter and pay, I saw this dog, the dog belongs to the owner and I told the owner that I'm a huge dog lover, so the owner let me cuddle it and the dog like me ...
I miss my snowy, I'm in an amazing fabric store and a cute dog for me to cuddle. that made me feel better and that put a smile on my face ~
when I bought the fabrics, n walked back to college saw the second years fashion n textiles students
they are the ones I communicate with a lot, so they ask me to sit down n chit chat about what's going on with me lately ...
so I did n we chat, when I go back to the technician room, I talked my problems with Gloria bcoz she is like a mum to me ~ n so she said if you feel comfortable to go somewhere else then u should ... so I joined Yunny, we went to Covent Garden and shop together, we had loads of fun we even bought the same dress and t-shirt we plan to wear together this friday ~

and she even invite me to go to her place n have steamboat on thursday ~ very excited ~ ^^

show you lot my latest purchase ~

my first purchase on that day is this coat, was planning to buy a black coat for winter
I really mad love the cutting , it reminds me of a bit of avant garde fashion
when I try it my juniors said I look good and I look like a spy lolx !!!

every girl needs a L.B.D = little black dress
this is the dress that Yunny and I bought the same one

a personal touch by adding a slim belt

bought this fringe top
this is totally my fav purchase ever bcoz it is made out of pleather ???
can I say is pleather ?? I dunno ~ anyway is like fake leather ~

 close up, can't wait to wear this out, but now the weather is getting ridiculously cold ~
anyway this was an ON SALE ,it was left in a sad little corner, cant believe ppl just can't be bothered to look at it

lolx something about this garment is I cant wash it .... only can hang it there n blow dry ~

anyway I feel weird that the blog post dun have my vain pics ~ lolx

I love full energy punk rock style, so I transformed my boring denim jakcet by adding studs on ~
nice ??? nice ????

a black top full of tassels is love
I love clothing with textures on ~

do you know how much is this ???
£5 and is good quality .... yes I agree I am a major cheapskate but with style ~

hope H&M has some sort of winter sales ~
shopping and chit chatting with Yunny makes me happy and we can talk so much bcoz both of us are malaysians ~ lolx !!!! when we were in H&M we chat n then we will say "omg, we are so malaysian"/"I've haven't heard about this in such a long time, lolz" basically we're fooling with our malaysian slangs lolx !!!

and also my good friend Imogen Thomas is my British sweetheart ~ she came to my place n comfort me
such a great fren ~ !!!! I am really bless ~

I decided to treat her starbucks bcoz she is low in money and yet she still put great effort to come n visit me n make sure I'm ok ~

us in the tube on the way to Leicester Square ~

this is me fav picture that we took together ~

 at trafulgar square, nomming our heavenly starbucks food ~
*everyone prefer me with natural make up .... but cannot la I've wasted my mum's money to buy those lenses unless u guys help me wear la ~*

wanna upload the video but cannot leh ~ need to wait for so long ~ really pek cek
hamster, I will send u the pics ... but the contrast is hard to edit neh ! u look faceless in those pictures ...

My self harm and out of relationship news had transported to Hong Kong =.=
grandma n cousins called my mum urgently to check whether I'm okay .... 
I have such great friends/family/relatives and dudes ... I am bless ...
I am sad but I can't complain ...
"you dun have to seek for the Mr.Right because he will come to you."
so where is he ? how I wish I have a mirror that can show my futue ....
if I have that n shit happens I will be like " yer so ugly what am I thinking, omg why am I hugging him !?"
lolx !!! no la cannot judge a book by it's cover ~  to have attractive lips is to speak the words of kindness - audrey hepburn .... I love that woman ~ 
I'm waiting for my trainers coz I need to jog again ... I'm so fat n I need a slimmer figure and face !

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