I'm alive again ~ ^^

Hello ou-you-bloggers ~

It's been a while and is 9.03p.m ... gonna choose what am I gonna plan what to wear for tmr AGAIN and swallow an early sleeping pill bcoz COLLEGE STARTS tmr ~~

ou well ... gonna be busy again and I LIKE IT !

Mum and Idiot sis already went back to Malaysia on Friday ...

this week is my disaster/good riddance week ~

at my previous blog I did mention "I went out with Hakan BuBu" 

You lot might be wondering who the hell is that guy ??

well he was my former bf ....

@.@ !!! FORMER BF ???? WHAT ABOUT MR.D ???

well it started like this, 10000 million years ago Mr.D called me and told me he wont be contacting me for a week bcoz he will be working, so as a good gf I must understand his postion and agree with it .... I was really down and having a relationship with him was quite depressing bcoz of the long distance and he didn't actually treated me that well .... then I sorta chit chat with his frens telling them how depressed I am and finally made a decision to break up with Mr.D ... Mr.D called me and he sorta T~T lolx !! I was @.@ shocked and told him to go to bed don't think so much and promised him I will put this break up thingy thing a side, then after a few days, I'm in a huge dilemma so I chat with his frenz again and *shock horror* they said he is a good fren but not a good bf and they told me before I ask this break up he contacted with other gal and that gal is their room mate so they know what's going on .... HEART CRACKED*

very angry and hurt, then I sent a sms telling him that I really want to break up ....

During my sad period, Hakan acc me all the time and Gina thought he will be a good bf and he will look after me ... Hakan told Gina that he likes me and really wants to be with me, while I have a tickling feeling for Hakan ...I dont dare to start a relationship with Hakan because he is a muslim and from a very strict muslim background, but Gina thinks when you love a person u won't care about the background ...so Gina she sorta pushed us together and forced us to speak out our feelings towards eachother .... from the very start I've already mentioned the muslim thingy thing to him and he said he already broke the rule for having gfs before and he is now in the new generation, "when ppl love a person, they wont look at their religion and background,bcoz of love they will risk and go for it.".... and that is how our relationship started on the 19th of Novmeber ...

p/s: Hakan is turkish ...

He was very sweet and very manly which I really love to rest myself against his body and his arms wrap around mine, and I finally have a bf right here in the UK which made me happy and really wanted ... but after a few weeks ... started to have probz ... I changed my contract from top up pay as you go to pay montly so I can call him everynight and day and chit chat with him ... We are together for a month plus and he didn't even call me at all, so I told him about how I feel, then he said I'm right and he will agree that he will contact me first ... okay then I thought he will call or sms me, but NO ... he contact me first VIA FACEBOOK ~ what the heck ... I pay £15 a month ... he didn't even bother to send me a TEXT but he use FACEBOOK ... facebook ruined everything ... and everytime when I go out for lunch or starbucks I am the one who will pay, everytime when the bill is infront of us, he will look at his BB and he didn't even offer ... I dun wanna stay back and wash the dishes, so I pay luuuuuu ... so I really am not happy, on Tuesday I called him saying I really am not happy how he treated me blablabla ... then on Wednesday I called him and he ignored my calls .... On thursday I sent him a text saying I would rather him to shout at me telling me what's going on rather than keep on ignoring me ...

then he sent me THIS :

Is totally a bull shit :

WHY ??!

Because at first I already mentioned about the religion, he is the who said it dosen't matter ...

NOW HE SENT ME THIS !!!!

 bcoz that time sheng kept on bugging me and wants me to be with him again and hakan dosen't like it, he wants me to send msgs to him to shoo him away ... 

"because I wanted u to start talking to him again so when I leave, you won't be alone.."

MY ASS !!!!!!!!!!!!

I T~T for 2 days ...

because when my mum and idiot sis left I will be alone and I thought I will have a partner to acc me ...I'M in a huge dissapointment ...  so yea but thankfully I have amazing frenz here to acc me and they made me feel better ^^

so yea to make myself feel much more better I went shopping ... laze around and spend my time ....

how ??

watch koren drama/online ~

clean the place, mop and sweep the floor ~

make up and talk to myself infront of the mirror

Be vain coz life is too short ~

My best fren huey's burfday was around the corner so I've bought her something ~~~

I've bought her ~~

Ta-dah :

Pretty ??

Denim dress and floral jacket is the autumn chic look ~

I totally mad love gold/bronze accessorise, hope she likes it too ^^

I also bought a burfday outfit for myself as well ^^

polky dots are totally mad chio and cute ^^ but see I still stick to the black and white,navy blue ^^

and I also laze around by playing with my clothes  ^^

bahahahahahaa messy ... *shyshy*

while messing around ^^

skull and stripes !!! WEEEEEE !!!!

be vain again with the webcam ~ better be vain as much as possible bcoz when ur old u cant be vain anymore lolx !!!

after that ofcoz I clean my mess laaaaa .. lolx !!

see clean and tidy again ~

*I know there's grammer mistakes but this is not an essay so I dun really give a damn and there's no grading*

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