Hello 2013 ~
I didn't update my blog for bazillion years ~
I can't complain that my life sucks, but I do complain on personal emotions
I really have to put myself into a bright position, I have no right to be depressed ? I really don't ...
am I blessed ?
I am
I can have everything I want ~ everything I need ~ every care ~ every love ~ every attention
my mummy and sisters are hilarious creatures
baba is a strong powerful responsible man
snowy is the little cutey fluffy creature who brings me great joy
my great frenz are my great blessing
(famfam, chloe, uni frenz)
Joao, the man who I build strong passionate love with and my best fren who is the compass of my life
am I forgetting anyone ???
sorry is 5:22 a.m here alright ~ ......
I think that's it XD
So I've moved out of London, I'm currently living in Cambridge, Studying fashion design in Cambridge School of Arts
After 3 years of BA will go back to London to pursue my masters in Central St.Martins, hopefully
instead of just designing/creating garments, I would like to be a stylist, dress up for women to bring back their confidence or a perhaps a buyer ? I dunno ~ I'm just a newbie ~ dun wanna blah so much
anyway
I am very happy with my life, always stress but ou well everyone is stress
is the 21st century the society is getting worst
it is normal to be stress
I live alone in a studio flat, yep no sharing and the whole floor is mine mine mine .... I dun like sharing ... especially toilet ... if someone is sharing a toilet with me for 100 years, trust me I will be constipated for 100 years
I am majorly OCD, I dun really like extra stuff on the table or whatsoever
not even my bed
in London BIG but tiny sis has a ROOWWWWW of plushies on the bed
and apparently BIG HEAD won it for her
I told Joao not to buy me those massive plushies bcoz I dun like dust
but it will depends la .... plushies which are meaningful
*creampuff - mummy bought it for me
* boo - yes the dog boo, Joao finds him the cutest dog he had ever seen ~ plus we are planning to have a puppy together when we are married ~ so yea that will be our first dog, and yes ofcoz I still love love LOVE my snowy to BITS !!!!!
*mr skittles - a monster unicorn gift by Jay ~~~ I LOVE UNICORN ever since I am into galaxy, I still LOVE skulls and mermaid ~~ it is a remembrance of our beloved fren,comfort,company ~
Do you know that JOAO is trying to piss me off, HE put mr skittles on the HEATER ! IT melts Mr skittles bottom leg so there's a HOLE in it and her pretty fluffy TAIL that turned into clumps that I have to snippydy snip snip snip it off !
I cried ~ yes I did ~~~ but I know he doesn't mean to do it so ou well ~
there's one time I look at Mr skittles for a very long time bcoz I realize there's something missing on her .....
and then I got it
she's baaaaaaald ~~~ she doesn't have hair ~
anyway I called her MR skittles bcoz of the wonderful awesome rainbow candy and mister sounds better than miss skittles ...
anyway she is from the moshi monsters ~ it doesn't meant to be normal ~*wink wink nudge nudge*
anyway I think I've typed long enough
flat tour !
the entrance/exit ~ stairs to the flat
and the shoes corner
bought a shoe rack and I've spent hourz building it bcoz of the stupid rails keep falling off
so I used UHU glue ~ well it still stays until now
and this is the kitchen ~
and there's the bed
when I took the picture Mr Skittles haven't exist yet ~
wardrobe and my ugly plastic box that contains fabric, and text books
most important of all the toilet
the shower ~
the little mermaid towel and hello kitty hand towel
shower cap with the strawberry loofah from boots and is only £1, the ones that doesn't have a strawberry cost more than £1, ofcoz get the strawberry la !!! I know I'm so malaysian ~
lil piggy bath mat ~
shower essentials and yes I like to brush my teeth while I shower ~
is warmer and easier ~ all at once ~ in the morning I used to brush my teeth at the basin with my birthday suit then go to shower, it was damn cold but whatever I don't like to brush my teeth with clothes on
scrubs and face wash, I've already changed it to a brand called sk:n and it's very good, trust me,
but is really pricey, when it comes to skin care I wouldn't go cheap, bcoz there are times I go for something quite cheap, pimples got worst and oily face ....
accessories box and my craps
first drawer
earrings
rings
second drawer
bracelets
watch
third drawer
necklaces
I usually put them in packets so they wont get tangled to eachother
and is easier for me as well
first drawer
make up
hair stuff
toiletries
skin care
second drawer
hairdryer
towel
scarfs
gloves
belts
a box of sandwich packets for the necklaces
third drawer
art stuff
stationary collection
and a single sofa chair near to the bathroom
the place where I do my work and surfing or watch movies
another space for my jewellery boxes/perfume/sewing kit/piggy bank from gina/ voodoo doll which I made when I was 16 ~
Lady gaga perfume ~ !which I added to the collection ~
I don't apply perfume that much ~ one bottle can be used for a billion years
I don't need too many of them ~
*~~~~~*
so that's part of my flat tour ~
I have great family, my family provide and I get this ~
we are really a majorly strong bond family, we care and love each other
and
I've fallen in love with the right person
so here's the part who will put me into huge mega grief ~
a colourful artist, who is crazy person, fun and loving
my dear fren Gina had passed away ~
One day Chloe finally called me and we hang out at Costa
suddenly my phone rang which is a random number
when I picked up the phone
someone said "Hi, Lychee ~"
Me : "OMG !!! GINA !!!! I THOUGHT YOUR DEAD !!!!! =D"
* : "This is Ayesha"
Me : "No, your not Ayesha your Gina "
* : "No this is Ayesha"
from the moment she said no, I know it is Ayesha bcoz Gina has a tint of Irish accent the way she pronounced No is completely different than Ayesha ....
Me : "Oh hey Ayesha, whats going on ?"
Ayesha : "you know Gina ye ~ she committed suicide ...."
I was in proper shock
I was in denial
I couldn't believe it
how come this fun crazy person will do something like that ?!
I couldn't believe the last day I saw her was at the tube station handing her my unwanted clothes
and it was less than 10 minutes ~ that's it ??? that's all we had ???
seriously ??
On halloween day, she posted my wall by saying she will give me back the money,
I was like what money ?? she said she will give me back when we hang out next time
I thought she was kidding bcoz of trick or treat ~
at first I thought she took some pills to kill herself but apparently she jumped out of the window
I was in major regret, actually no I still do have some regrets that I'm not there for her
when they had this gathering I wasn't there, bcoz I was in malaysia and after malaysia I was busy moving to cambridge ~
in fact when there's a chance to see her
I was mad at her, ever since she left college
I looked down on her ....
I looked down on her even more when she broke up with magne, and had a relationship with a stinky drug dealer dirtbag !!!! she started to have drugs, and she had a baby with him ... part of me was ok happy for her but part of me was like omg !!!!! u gonna be kidding me ...
THAT MAN ! RUINED HER LIFE !!!! HE HIT HER AND HE TORTURED HER PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY !!!! HE HIT HER AND PUSHED HER DOWN THE STAIRS ....SHE LOST THE BABY !!! IT WAS MAJORLY HARD ON HER, AND YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO SUPPORT HER !!!!
SHE LOVED HIM SO MUCH, WHAT DID SHE GET ???
THAT STINKINGBALLS GAVE HER NOTHING BUT SORROWS,DEEP DEPRESSION AND HUGE GRIEF OF PRESSURE ON HER SHOULDERS ....
HE IS THE ONE WHO SHOULD KILL HIMSELF
HE HAS NO RIGHT TO LIVE
I USUALLY CURSE PEOPLE TO HAVE PIMPLES, BUT I ACTUALLY CURSE HIM TO DIE DIE DIE !!!!!!!!! DIE IN YOUR PUNY LOW COUNCIL FLAT AND NO ONE WILL NOTICE YOU UNTIL YOU ROT AND HALF OF YOUR FACE IS GONE BCOZ YOUR CAT EAT YOUR UGLEH FACE !!!!!! AND AT THE CORNER THE CAT PUKED OUT YOUR CHEWED FLESH AND SKIN DUE TO POOR DIGESTION !!! THE CAT IS TOO BORED SO IT DECIDED TO PLAY WITH YOUR EYEBALLS !!!!! SCRATCH IT OUT AND LET IT SPLATTER AND ROLL ON THE FLOOR !!!!
Gina broke up with him and she moved back with her mother, she was absolutely fine,
she was beautiful until that idiot called her or something
no ones knows what happen
no one knows the reason why ~
she left with an untold tale
first year of college exhibition ~
her final piece was amazing and she actually used life insects
look how amazing she was
she did the painting,corset and a dress
she was talented ~
second year exhibition
our last picture together
I've dreamed about her, I asked whether she can forgive me
and she said yes, and she asked whether we can forgive her and I said yes as well
in my dream I dreamed of my old primary school, although the building was different, but in my mind it was my old school, when I was walking down the stairs the gate is locked, but then I saw gina walked pass through it talking to her phone casually, I ran away bcoz I know she's a ghost, lolz
Joao told me, it means we should let her go
bcoz the dream is about forgiving, and primary school is actually our proper first step to progress in life
and she walked through the gate and being all fine and everything
means she walked pass through a gate to progress the next step of her life, her talking casually on the phone means she's okay, she's fine ~
well I hope my dream give out the accurate message from her ~
our last gift for her ~ I drew a drawing for her "Lasagna and Happiness" bcoz she love pasta and lasagna
and I wrote I'm over the rainbow way up high on her body
I miss you and love you always my dear friend ~
forever in my heart ~
forever in my mind ~
rest in peace Gina ~
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