THIS TITLE IS FOR HUI HUI ~ IF YOU ARE READING MY BLOG , PLS DO MAKE SURE BABA & MUMMY IS NOT AROUND !

*warning* = This entry might hurt your feelings , I apologies , but thats the truth of how I feel . Well the truth is ugly . Once again I'm Sorry ...

Seriously man I dun care anymore I'm very sick and tired ... still inside here my *♥* is lonely  ~ yes although I have frenz in the UK , they are awesome , they are fun & loving , and I'm happy to see them when I get to college , yeah they are my frenz ~ but not the fren fren kindna fren , you know what I mean ? lolx !!I miss my frenz from the island ~~ well ofcoz is Penang Island, what Island you think it is ... BAHAHAHA !

There are loads of things I wanna complain about my college, well not the course , is the people around me, I dun wanna type it out coz I just step my foot into this circle, I dun wanna make a huge chaos , I wanna give myself more time to see it . Someday if I cant help it I will burst it out (you'll see)

        well I do wanna make phone calls to my bestie Huey Huey (why I put her name in purple ? coz thats her favourite colour )she is the one I can really talk to lor ~ but everytime when I look at the time is always after 1 a.m ~ I know she work all day long so I dun dare to call her coz she might be sleeping ~ she already have her own problems but at least she got a bf to lean on ~

how about mine ?yes he did acc me loads these following weeks but if he didnt acc me for a day or for weeks I actually dun mind, coz I dun like to bother ppl and I understand, I care for ppl more than myself (thats stupid but thats me) *good person is hard to be* but seriously there are loads of things that I really cant tell him ..coz basically he wont understand ~

if ppl ask me do I have a bf ? yes , yes I do ... but when I'm walking on the streets and saw couples holding hands together , laughing , hugging ....

if you ask me again do I have a bf ? the words come out from my mouth is " errrrr , I guess so."
WHAT DO I MEAN I GUESS SO WHAT AM I THNKING !?

I really hate myself man ~~~~

Talk to my college frenz ? Cant, Sorry guyz ....

how about my leng zai ? he is in the uni right now & I dun wanna disturb him ~ I hate to disturb ppl ~

family ??

My BIG but tiny sis ? nah ~~~ (dun like to tell her,everytime saw her is always like "haizz" suak liao)

My idiot sis ? vomit blood (I said a billion words she wont understand , my heartache she will turn into a joke instead)

My mummy ? I dun think so (she will get high blood pressure , and she will think until very very very far away)

My baba ? More CHAM ! (cant get into the conversation with him)

So

My frenz always ask me "lychee have you done your homework yet ?"

I will sure *nod*

Actually I cover myself up with homework , I make myself busy & I do actually want to be busy...

Why ?

So I wont think of loneliness

Oh March hurry up ~

once I get the BIG BLACK ONES (camera)

I will sure go out and take pictures

give myself a project to be more busy

turn the white book into something that brings out life

(X-mas pressie from Imogen)

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